To: Jiaen.

Hello Jiaen!
i know this period of time it might be very tiring for you
because of MANY MANY things that you didn't expect.
I admit,
i might not be able to help in anything sometimes,
when you tell me your problems ,
i know i have to comfort you.
but i have to choose .
tell you the FACTS , or the COMFORTS which will never let you know the fact.
i decided to tell you everything that i thought this afternoon,
its all my feelings,not lies. i swear.

If i could,
of course i would want to comfort you.
as in who doesnt wants to help her best friend to feel better?
but sometimes, i really cant say anything.
Firstly, i dont have any experiences in all these things.
i dont know the feeling of it.
Secondly, i know you want to sit with him but you have to think about me.
The looks you gave me today,
didnt make me feel better .
" Joanne Lim is neglecting TeoJiaen."
can you believe it ?
yes, this was what came upon my minds after you looked at me in class(chinese).
its hard to believe but you have to.

To be frank,
i didnt really feel very sad to walk off alone today.
Feeling lost, it was some time for me sort out some thinkings you know.
if i dont do that, you will be sandwiched.
i dont want you to be more troubled because of me.
( i dont even know if you will even feel trouble because of me:( you never show me your true feelings before....)

The reason why we can be friends for so long,
is that
WE ARE SIMILAR , BE IT IN OUR CHARACTER OR THINKINGS.
I can confirm and guarantee that,
if i have a boyfriend in school too,
same thing will happen to me in school.
i admit i will go to his side more often.
thats why i know how you are feeling.
ALL I NEED IS SOMETIME TO ADAPT ,
so please me some time k?
i'll promise to do my best to make you feel better !

I rather you ps me go to his side,
i also dont want see you emo.
I REALLY HATE TO SEE YOU EMO..
EVERYNIGHT I'LL PRAY TO GOD THAT,
TOMORROW WE HAVE A NICE DAYS WITHOUT QUARRELS,EMO-NESS.
but, i can never know when will you go emo or not..
im not a fortune teller nor i grew in your stomach..
i can never know what you are thinking if you never tell me.

i know you have jiayi by your side,
but we are not invisible either.
i dont have cousins like her,
i wont be able to know your feelings about that.
Of course i'm not trying to say that,
you should stop talking to jiayi ,
NO! NOT THAT WAY.
I know you can tell everything to her,
we cant.
but thats your choice..
i just wanna let you know,
we are always there for you,
is just that you want to come and confide to us...
or not.....

Cheerups Jiaen !